_+[classical.electric.acoustic.bass.slide]//

Life is full of ups & downs, one wave strikes after one subsides. My life is like that, with occasional occurrance of powerful tsunamis. I'm glad I've made it through the storm, at least till now.

Everything that's given to u, take it for granted & u may not get to have them anymore in ur life.

Once again, I lost my directions & there is no one I can turn to. It's not their fault, its my fault for being so not expressive. I just dunno how to open my heart to anyone, my heart wants to but my mouth is reluctant to. I put on a brave front but inside I feel lonely, empty & lost. I lose temper, Im clumsy, Im a burden. Im sorry for being a trouble & disappointment to the people around me. I feel that the world has given up on me, like how I've lost everything & given up on myself. Countless times I thought killing myself can solve the problem but I just dont have the courage yet... I don't deserve warmth, love & happiness.

Welcome to my frozen world.

11:59 PM

2012-03-26

&& i think of u every night~

Chapter 722

This is indeed a very nice song, been a long time since I came across a nice chinese song like this one.

Listening to this song somehow reminds me of the days when I was a cheerful boy in class. In a blink of an eye Im 20 now. 'na xie nian cuo guo de dong xi', soon when we grow older, we'll keep looking back at the things we've missed, things that we feel regrets. Very soon, my journey with KOI Cafe is going to shorten alot, or even end. It's gonna be unpredictable to wadz gonna happen after March. It's become a big part of my life here. Some of them r just like my own family members oredi, I feel more warmth in here than my own home. It's saddening to think abt not being able to hold the shaker & make nice drinks for the ppl anymore. All I can do now is treeasure every moment I have with the important ones here who knows me the best & given me support. All the outings, overseas trip, rehearsals, I've forgotten none of them.

On the other hand, my real home doesnt seem like a home anymore. It's drama after drama every night, I used to enjoy going home so much but now I dun anymore. It's not that Im sick of my family life, but rather I wish I have a family which everyone stays happily together & not quarrels or trouble. It makes me wanna move out on my own whenever things get chaotic here. It doesnt affect me anymore cuz Im so used to it. ._.

I dunno wad is going to happen in the future, but right now Im a happy person, thats enough. :)

2:27 AM

2011-12-09

&& i think of u every night~

Chapter 721

Went to ECP with 8 colleagues last night, we prepared so much for it. While we were there we realised there were things we forgot to buy. 4 of us walked back to Marine Parade to buy & walked back, when we were back another 4 went to find toilet, I began drinking & in the end got outta control & drank too much. Played 5 10 15 with Yvonne, Cynthia & Jiaqi, got drunk after 6 cans of beer. Began to slp & my slp lasted 3 hours! I could recall myself eating ham bread 1 mouth & throwing it away, & I rmb I puked, talking nonsense, etc. Didnt get to eat much.. :(

Went to eat & play poker cards with Yvonne, Randy, Wanru & Joseph just now. Had a crazy time. There is something I wanted to share but was afraid it might be too offensive. DISCLAIMER: RELIGION ISSUE

The other day Yvonne, Randy & I were @ Randy's house cooking spaghetti & curry chicken. While doing the clean-up job, I almost poured the leftover curry into the pot where the tea is inside to be served for guan yin ma the next day. It was nothing @ 1st but Randy started imagining his mother serving the curry instead of tea for Guan Yin Ma the next morning. What's gonna happen? Our imagination ran wild & we had a good long laugh!

"GuanYinMa will lao cheh sai(release green shit) the next day!",

"U'll see pimples on her face the next day",

"There will be missing petal on her seated lotus cuz she uses it to wipe her butt."

"Her lotus seat holes will be filled with shit she feels so uncomfy that she would stand up when u see her the next day."

"She will commit suicide by pressing the dot on her forehead!"

& more that I cant recall right now..

Haha it IS offensive but we just got so enthu we kept talking about it, however we did feel bad @ the end la, haha.

When playing poker Randy that day said, "Jesus save me~", after awhile Wanru began begging,"Buddha save me~~" HAHAH I laughed so hard @ it!

3:45 AM

2011-06-30

&& i think of u every night~

Chapter 720

Went to East Coast Park in 2 consecutive days with Yuanqing & my bro respectively on my 2 free days from work. It was fun & relaxing, & got tanned all over and a little sunburn on the face too. & on both days we went to Marine parade's KOI Cafe, haha. Honey Greenmilktea is actually not bad. (Y)

Ytd straightaway took cab from ECP with my bro down to VivoCity, to get the big colourful Lego watch that I have considered for some time whether I should get it. & went to Yoshinoya to eat too, had fun. I didnt know that a restaurant called 'The Orange Lantern' actually existed, haha.

Finally back to work today, meeting Wanru early to have McD Value lunch later. I'll be a full-timer next month onwards. Yes, at this moment I'm gonna announce that I have quit school. The most important thing about living ur life is to be happy. I just dun feel being in MI suits me, having to stand there for flag-raising & greeting teacher @ the start of the lesson, asking me to do it again now, it gives me goosebumps, hah. And nothing is worse than waking up early in the morning like a zombie & the biggest nightmare is still the SCARY(!!!) attire check. All the above are just not for me.

Since I've lost interest, I know I wun put in effort in it, in the end I dun do well, I'm wasting my time. So now decided to convert to full-time before NS. If possible, I can enter a Poly next year before that? The future is unpredictable, anything can happen now, at this second, by a call, or someone knocking ur door to tell u a news, be it good or bad. Whatever u wanna do or get, do not hesitate if u have the ability to do it.

It's almost impossible to have no regrets in life since it is unpredictable.

I'm gonna live my everyday to my fullest now, with as little regrets as possible. :)

1:16 PM

2011-06-23

&& i think of u every night~

Chapter 719

Found time to blog, finally. Life @ work is great, with my 21 colleagues. We have outings almost every single day. Steamboat, dinner, prawing etc. They are all funny ppl each with their unique characters, & we all get together, it's really fun & crazy.

Ajisen dinner with Wanru, Xiaomei, Jasmine & Jennifer was great & fun, head back to the shop with Wanru and we played some typing games.

Hopefully we're all going prawning again tonight.

2:28 AM

2011-06-10

&& i think of u every night~

Chapter 718

A big comeback for the DS, Nintendo 3DS is freaking cool & it is so much improved. There are some default games in it like Mii Maker where u can customise ur own character & use it in ur gameplay & to interact with other players. It is HD & can also see the 3D effect. The analog is nice to use too.

1:00 PM

2011-05-10

&& i think of u every night~

Chapter 717

Waiting for pay to be transferred into my bank acc is always a tough period for me, haha. Our pay day is on the 7th every month & for that amount to come into our acc from Standard Chartered cheque, we drop it in & wait 2 working days to get it in our POSB acc. This month's 7th happened to be on a Saturday, which isnt a working day, so we'll get it later. I've always wanted to save up at least a small amount of my pay but I always ended up spending here and there. I spent on a 3DS, a constant steamboat trip @ Chinatown, food, outings, cab & etc, come to think about it it's really scary.

For the current pay Im at least gonna get myself some clothes, haha. SHOES & BAGS ESPECIALLY!

Anw sch is as usual. As for work, it's really super busy. & with the horribly hot weather outside, it can get annoying some times. It's a really hot period, really crazy. The moment I come out from a shower(with cold water), I feel hot after a few mins again.

& during this period many ppl are coming in & many are leaving. Feifei & Juinfai & Vera have left, Cherlyn will be leaving too. The new few are so different, I'd call them the DD, Double-Dwarf. :D

One of them is improving, another one is like just coming in for fun, getting our work T & now he has decided to give in & leave, saying he has headache & just refuses to come, being a burden to everyone. It's a shame to the men, moreover he has completed his NS, & he has attitude problem & cant even carry a pot of ice, what's wrong?

& right now there is a new entertainment in our shop, someone who thinks he, or rather she is very needed & powerful. Nobody cares abt what u do, ure making things difficult for urself by rushing to prove everyone but it didnt make any difference, in the end u caused trouble again by pouring chocolate into the honey jar. U got scolded but u dun listen. Everyone is hating u & treating u as a joke, u bring it upon urself so blame no one, but urself.

& of cos, there are lots of happy times too. Last Friday we decided to play Rebecca Black's 'Friday' in the shop. We all laughed so hard, Calvin even had to squat down to laugh, haha! & dian zhang was in a good mood ytd & we were all super on fire & it felt really good.

12:13 PM

&& i think of u every night~

the ROCKER

Free Blog Content

Quality Time:		10
Acts of Service:		6
Physical Touch:		5
Words of Affirmation:		5
Receiving Gifts:		4

The Five Love Languages

Complete set of results

Information